Day 53: Slight Recovery

Felt really bleak today but then managed to overcome a fear and felt a lot better. Fuck, tired, though. So tired. Bed time.

Day 52: Slight Awakening

Work continued as per usual for this desperate two weeks. Worked on the rhythm composition and that's going well. Also, recorded vox for my song Explanations. Sounds really good too.

Been a weird day, though. Basically realized I'm losing perspective. Need to stay humble and grounded.

Day 51: The Specialisation

I've decided that, until I get all the creative work necessary for my upcoming installation, I'll hit pause on everything else except for domestic and exercise.

Today, failed domestic. Got a lot of work done from a creative standpoint, though. I'm actually really looking forward to when this process is over because it's proving to be a hugely educational experience - I'm learning about arrangement, production, instrumentation, timing, harmony. I know that, when I return to hip hop, I'll be ten times the producer I was before - and I'm excited about what that will mean for my productions.

Tomorrow, I actually record some vox for some hip hop tracks. Scared.

I also plan to outline the compositional philosophy I'm exploring both with this project and my hip hop.

Also, it's fucking hot.

Day 50: Composery

Let's be quick.

Not focussing hugely on employment at the moment. Need to get my current work done. Didn't exercise today (day-off, as is usual for Sundays, but didn't even do the standard half-hour - swimming is getting intense and I think I need a proper break day). Worked on composition for hours but didn't make anywhere near the progress I'd like. Stressed out. Feeling weird.

Day 49: Whoops..

Ah, it was bound to happen eventually. Just plain forgot a day.

Life has gotten ultra-hectic and yesterday that was compounded by the fact that my pay was late and I had to subsist on a couple of dollars. Ate away at me all day.

Even tonight, I'm blogging as my carrots cook and I finish ironing tonight's clothes.

Quickly

Creatively - now have to write two one hour pieces for an installation. Furthered one, started another.

Exercise - nailed it, 100, 60

Work - Failed it. Nada.

Domestic - Fifty-fifty - need to tidy up my room slightly, but cleaned up the house

Logistic - fail. Honestly, though, I don't need any more creative work right now...

Day 47: Flip Flop

Let's keep this brief. It's late and I need to be in bed.

Exercise - 100 freestyle, 40 breaststroke. Feels good.

Domestic - cleaned up house

Creative - the reason I'm up so late is I spent an hour working on a composition. Interestingly, I've just been commissioned to be part of a festival and, somewhat idiotically, I decided I'd do two one-hour compositions in two weeks. I was working on the first one (which is actually coming together quite nicely). This'll be fun...

Logistics - see above. Worked out what I was going to do with festival people.

Jobs - I spent half an hour looking. Hoping I can go visit a recruiter or two in person tomorrow.

Done. Bed time.

Day 46: The Subtitle

Inexplicably very tired. As in, utterly exhausted. I'd suspect it'd be the upped swimming regimen (currently sitting at 100 laps freestyle, 30 laps breaststroke) but that doesn't make much sense. Regardless, I'm knackered, so I'll be brief.

Exercise - see above. Everything else was a bust except logistics. I was working all day. Again, though - better to take care of what I've got than mistreat it for a non-existent future job or career. Logistics wise I made some more appointments for recording and also met up with a friend to discuss my grant application.

Outside of the five categories, I've noticed a situation in my personal life wherein I would like to take action but lack the courage (or have thusfar lacked the courage). This is something that needs to be remedied in the immediate future. Man up.

In the meantime - beddy byes.