Day 28: The Edge of the Plateau

So, theoretically, today marks the end of an era. Namely, the strange, slow, unproductive period I seem to have been mired in over the past week. It's only today I recognised it for what it was.

Every time I've tried to up my game in this productivity business, I've taken it to a certain level and then paused. Often, I've grinded to a temporarily halt. That didn't happen this time. I've never stopped moving. I just haven't been moving as fast as I'd like. Still, it was a definite break. I've kept moving but I've been moving comfortably. Tonight, I got tired of not pushing myself to my utmost. I realised I missed a certain aspect of pain and exhaustion. More than that, I miss restraint and self-control. I've made and broken so many small promises to myself over the past week. No more.

I don't like drawing these lines in the sand. I learnt a long time ago that my contrary nature tends to make me more productive when I don't make a big statement about it. I never told anyone about my plan to lose thirty kilograms in six months until I was five months into the process. I just did it. I think I need to do it this time, though. Mainly because I need to remind myself of my ability to set a goal and achieve it.

So, plan for tomorrow - aim for the 90mins of exercise (including upping the number of laps I do each day by 4 on a daily basis as opposed to 2) and devote a minimum of a half-hour to each of the categories.

To reiterate the categories:

1. Exercise
2. Employment
3. Creativity
4. Domestic
5. Logistical Planning 

I also plan to add a cultual capital aspect to the equation. I need to keep expanding my mind. I'm thinking I'll start with re-reading Les Miserables. I never actually finished the fucking thing. After that, I can work through the other classics in my library. I need to pay closer attention to diet too. I've realised my more relaxed stance of the past couple of weeks makes me tired and groggy at the wrong times. It doesn't make me put on weight but that's not the priority here. I need to be healthy.

Can I do this? I don't know. I know I need to set the bar high, though. When I fall short, I'll still be better than I was before. I just need to remember that failure is built into the system. It's predicated on the assumption that I won't do everything.

As for today's actual progress:

I worked all day so I got nothing done. I did 30min exercise. I did some research on jobs. Really, though, work ate up all my day. That's why today was a breaking point. Or should be, anyway.