Not much happened today. It was basically all work today - the two jobs collided and conspired to siphon my time away for the day.
Note: potential lyric.
I did get some stuff done. I managed to sort out my references. I set up preliminary meetings about the release of the EP. I went swimming for the second day and actually stuck around for half an hour (and, thank fuck, I got in touch with my brother for some technique tips - should make it slightly easier) and I tidied up the house a bit. Oh, and I kept up the standard exercise bidness on top of the swimming.
I think I need to think more about the whole social aspect, though. I'm kind of vanishing into this comprehensive world of obsession and, I suspect, it's messing with my self-esteem. I've found myself feeling like a very average, mundane person and that's quite unusual. I wouldn't say I've always had a healthy ego but I generally keep a tight grip on my self-awareness (as this blog probably demonstrates). Even when I've felt utterly depressed and/or suicidal, I've known, intellectually, that I am a reasonably exceptional and distinctive person. Lately, I've even doubted my capacity to write well - arguably my only undeniable talent.
I've also realised I need to socialise more through the realisation that I'm not that brilliant at it. Lately, I've found myself confounded by the concept of how two people connect on an emotional level. Not that I'm incapable of it, more that I can't figure out how/why it occurs. I'm not sure if that complaint makes me stupidly adolescent, human or just pretentious. In any regard, social relationships are something I need to put some effort into - though I'm loathe to make it part of the daily regimen. Forced socialising? I'd feel like a nazi experiment. Or a high school student.
This bears further investigation.
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