I figured something out today: I genuinely need to socialise. Not to be happy or healthy (though I'm sure both of those states would be more easily attained with assistance) but to function. All of my general companions are currently interstate or deposed. As a result, I idled today away in isolation. My focus and energy plummeted. I was depressed, anxious and irrational for most of the day.
I remembered that the different between an extrovert and introvert is not the disposition of the individual but from where they draw their energy. Introverts are sustained by themselves in isolation. Extroverts draw their energy from other people. I have always been an extrovert. With no-one around, I'm not as focussed.
I did do the domestic stuff and I was actually quite successfully musically - I reworked a beat, wrote a killer bass-line and did all the extra layers of sampling I need to do for a song to work in my style - but I didn't exercise and my mood was just rubbish all day. It wasn't until I spontaneously reconnected with an old friend at the end of the day that I got my verve back.
I also think I was just burnt out from forcing myself for a couple of weeks. I probably needed rest. So, I rested. Tomorrow, though - tomorrow I return to working hard.
I seem to be saying that a lot...
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