Another day of next to nothing. Exercise, yeah, and a lot of thoughts about creativity and my ongoing quest for perfection but most of the day recovering from last night's festivities. My body was wrecked from dancing all day at Hangar (and the usual exercise) and I was just generally exhausted. Was it a cop out day? I don't think so. I don't think I could have done much more in the state I was in. Still, can't let these last two days become a pattern.
In regards to the thoughts, I just kind of realised how far behind I am. Perhaps that sounds stupid. I just know that socially and intellectually I am unbelievably underdeveloped for my age - and I know that both aspects will inevitably impinge upon other facets of my development. I suppose it's a good thing, in a way. The wisest man is he who knows he knows nothing at all and all that nonsense. It's a frustrating realisation, though. I feel I should be a lot more than I am right now.
I think that social interaction is a difficult thing to master, it seems to be easy for a lot of people, but a lot of these people are sheep, in many different ways and often without knowing it, and it is easy to be part of a crowd and not struggle. When you have a strong sense of yourself things start to become difficult as a lot of people can not comprehend it. I have learnt that it is about who you interact with that is important, I find that people who hold no judgement and who are open minded and happy within themselves as an individual make the whole process a lot easier.
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